im so ugly, but that's okay, cause so are you.

i love you
ffs

no you're mine
you're my best friend
i miss you
i miss how you used to be
you've got all these new friends
are they better than i am? of course
 
i tried so hard to be there for you
and it was difficult after he got involved
can't you see it was him?
he ruined everything
 
he's ruined your life and you can't even see it
 
and i might say mean things, but that's because im jealous.
im jealous of you because we don't even speak anymore, and you seem fine.
 
yeah, i got a new "best" friend
but that's because you left me
and i don't think we'll ever be like how i am with her again
but you'll always be my best friend
because i was there when no one else was
and she's not you
she isn't
 
i miss you
i cry because i miss you
even if i see you, it's not the point
 
i miss how we were
 
i can't stop crying
 
why'd you leave me?

i dont mind - defeater
 
t u e s d a y
 
no
i dont want tuesday
 
i'd rather not know if i am depressed or not thanks
 

but today
was
lovely
 
yea you belong in my bed
im certain
cuddle up with me
watching megamind and dora the explorer
and you cant leave ever again
 
oh no
it's happened again
 
ffs
 
at least im doing good at not eating

amber lynn - mayday parade
 
i'm in a confusing mood, am i happy or sad?
should be happy, today was perfect
 
i finished reading the fault in our stars by john green and i cried, i dont think i've cried so much over a book since i was about eleven, oh dear
 
as i said, today was perfect
he was lovely, for an unknown reason
i dunno, maybe he was happy today too, for a change
 
we sat where we usually sat, and we had a cigarette each, and he kept trying to burn me with his lighter cause he's mean, but i love him
my gosh, i love him
 
i love him
i love him
i love him
i love him
 
i haven't eaten yet, oops
i guess im happy
and i'm listening to mayday parade, i remember now why they are my favourite
 
but you, girl, you're meant to be my best friend
jesus christ, we can barely keep up a conversation
 
ah well, you have your new friends, i hope they're almost as good as i am to you, i miss you.

t o o f a t
s t o p e a t i n g
t o o f a t
 

the worst thing in the world is being compared to her
 
i cannot take it
 

she's better
so
much
better
 

and i know it
 
but i don't do anything about it
 

 
why don't i do anything about it?
 
i'm going to
 
i will be better than her

jesus christ ~ brand new
 

ugh effort
been so tired lately

his jacket is warm and cosy
its kinda like the feelings he gives me inside
and its sad to think one day we're going to end
because we are so good together
and one day, i will look back and think
"Man, I really loved him."

i miss you, i think.
 

 
my boyfriend asked me why i loved him, i wrote him a huge paragraph and he said he got a feeling he'd never had before, a funny one.
i just hope he doesn't end up hating that feeling as much as i do.

yeah idk

hating everything right now like urgh, what even i s my life, like seriously